I can't bear to take the blankets off the window ledges. The places where Ruby liked to curl up when the sun came in. Laying in bed, I expect to hear the pat pat pat across the linoleum and feel the thwump when she jumps on the bed. She would walk along the edge and then climb over the top of the pillows. No matter what she came over to where M and I hung out. She had taken to sleeping on my hip if I laid on my side and whenever I came home, I would see where she had spent the day. There would always be a small curved bowl smoothed out in the blankets where she had spent of some part the day. The apartment is different without her. Vacant and quiet. Strange and lonely. My heart bangs in my chest thwump..and I wonder and pray I made the right decision.

Man..she was special to me.

through the kitty door to heaven

For those who met and enjoyed our little feline spitfire spark Ruby, I wanted to let you know the sad news that after 5 weeks of declining health issues, Michael and I made the heart wrenching decision to help Ruby pass on. She was euthanized peacefully this evening at approx 10:30pm. She passed away as we both held her while she rested in our laps on a pillow she'd found comfort on for the last week.

We'll miss her and her funny ways.

We won't miss finding half eaten mice on the kitchen floor though.

Jill & Michael
26 Jan 2012

ruby

Kitty crimson.. pink as rose

with knowing eyes, they shimmered gold.

9 years soon that time has froze

She and I, our hearts we hold.

The Revelotioneres

Plaza De Mayo, Buenos Aires

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It's becoming clearer to me that Life (do you like how I capitalized that?) is a series of stories that you've either decided to believe from someone else or that you told along the way. Somewhere  I decided that because experienceX happened to me that experienceY would or vice-versa and if X happened again in a similar way, then by "life experience" Y was going to happen again- eventually. Human beings will look for the evidence. I think we'll create it eventually and all actions begin with the way you think about things. I don't think it's trite all all to believe what you believe will happen. I remember one day when I wrote down on a piece of paper that I made X amount of money and that I had a great job. This was at a time when I thought that X was unattainable.. really out of my reach. Like it was crazy talk.  I now make $200 beyond it.

I still have that piece of paper.

resolute

 res·o·lute/ˈrezəˌlo͞ot/

Adjective:	Admirably purposeful, determined, and unwavering.
Synonyms:	determined - firm - decided - resolved - decisive

1. get off the processed grains
2. sugar free new year
3. more yoga
4. the bicycle
5. water. lots of it
6. learn more
7. loose 40
8. make more stuff
9. exhibit
10. vietnam